I have been on this enlightening journey of self-fulfillment. I literally ask myself, “ Is this fulfilling you? Does it make you happy? Can it be better?” I live my life for me and I do everything I want. Selfish? Yes. But I am not in a position to compromise this process of building someone I am proud of and that often means that I can’t be to everyone what I used to be. While I am always busy, I move mountains to be there for someone who calls.
Surprisingly, a lot of relationships I’ve built have dwindled because I was the proactive one. Yet I wish my relationships would carry into this new chapter. I have many exciting events coming up next year including turning 25, visiting Dubai and moving to Kenya.
Some of the things I’ve learned along the way are 1) accept you have things you change 2) be willing to change them 3) Show off the new you. The hardest thing a person can do is better themselves. It often means letting go of the person that you are and the things you know. The right people will understand that you haven’t forgotten about. I can, with absolute confidence, tell Chatney what is mine is hers until the end of time. People like her are God sent. A lot of the person I am is because someone took the time to invest in me and make me better. It isn’t a matter of what she did, but the journey we took together. I dream big because she believe in me.
There are some relationships that I am not so proud of but in God’s speed they will come around. But there is one there is one relationship that I am over the moon about, my relationship with my mother. That lady is my life. I talk about her constantly and think about her daily. I almost lost her in the beginning of the year and she knew I loved her then. But today, I love her more than she has ever known or that I have known I could love. I will always be there and have her back even when I am the one under attack.
In all honesty, you have to center yourself and stay in a good health space and place. Find a way to make the things you do be fruitful to multiple people. I am going to end the year ( hopefully) as Miss District of Columbia USA, be in the best shape of my life and overjoyed by my accomplishments.
What will you be ? It’s not too late to decide.
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